The four words are really inadequate: I've left the country.
But I have.
The Covid 19 was the main cause, wiping out our hospitality business, yet the Covid canal, like the Suez and Panama, can experience ships going sideways rather than forwards. So there are more reasons to leave the country.
Take a thief, a scoundrel and a stupid person like Zuma, protected by the ANC.
Take a hollow, expensive suit, like Ramaphosa, protecting the ANC.
Take the electorate, the subservient, uneducated, impoverished, unprotected, ill-advised supporters of the ANC.
And then take into account the crumbling national infrastructure: electricity, education, water, municipal delivery, post office, deeds office, and each national office you can think of.
The formal, legalised national-speak has changed from my growing up years to the present. If I had published this blog in the seventies or eighties I would have been arrested before blogging off.
Not now. The ANC and its leaders really don't care, so long as their pockets are kept full. Their reputation and honour mean nothing other than internal party political manipulation for the sake of power-survival. It used to be called petty cash, and it was possible to steal this, in petty ways. But the national cash cow is the main target, and it will be eaten alive. No bull.
That's my swan-song in connection with the political rubbish. The NP leaders were bullies, the ANC leaders are supremely greedy and the next lot, no matter the party, will be ruthless.
But that's not about leaving the country. That's about the country leaving itself.
I will remember running along Cape Town streets, train journeys to Johannesburg, learning to learn in what used to be schools and universities, which is what I've loved most, apart form the steaks, Cabernet Sauvignons and my old Volksie, the city and its styles, the sky-scapes, mountain-scapes, and my solitary walks on Kommetjie beach, in the sun and in storms, coming back to the warmth of whiskey and a cigar.
I will remember all of this and so much more.
My homes, the wind, rain and wishful thinking, and the mountains: Table Mountain, Twelve Apostles, the Amatola and the Cederberg.
And Devil's Peak.
And how love, conversations, scrutiny and care have followed me in my path in that country, thanks to so many, many people.
I have left the country, yes, and am amazed to find out how much has not left me.
I understand very little about love, but its stickiness, like honey, is difficult to wash off.